Ice Cream

Why the hell, on the 3rd day of my diet, does everyone and thier dog have to talk about ICE CREAM??? Specifically, Blizzards, which is one of my favorite ways to have ICE CREAM! This sucks ass! This is why I can't ever go through with a diet. So far, I've managed to resist, but still, I was crying. I hate it!

So, now that I'm done whining, I am down by 2 pounds from yesterday, and probably close to 5 total, unsure as my scale a home doesn't work, so I'm having to only use the one at work. Oh well, maybe it'll be good news next Tuesday since I won't be able to weigh after Thursday. I'm hoping for some loss.

I need to drop a lot. My final goal right now is 100 pounds. Anything gone daily or weekly is a plus. I really hope I can make it work. I can't deal with being fat anymore. I've wasted too much of my life being fat, I need this change.

Well, on this dark note, I'm going to the gym.

I'm so READY!

I am so damn ready for Vacation! I need a break from my life! I'm not really liking my job so much right now. Not so much my job, but some of the people I'm working with, and some of the crap they are having us do now. As if we didn't have enough on our plates already. I'm just done. Ready to go back to PIC if that's what it takes to make me like my job again.

But, thankfully, I get an entire week off. I think I'm going to shut my phone off and only have it on long enough for Bryson t call his dad from the coast! I'm so stoked to be going back to my favorite place in the world! The Oregon Coast. Know a ton of people who hate it, but that's what I grew up with, and it's the coast I love. It's going to just be my mom, Bryson and myself. Talk about some time to relax! Whoo!

I am so glad that I joined the gym! I'm loving how I feel after I go work out. And, what a great way to relieve stress after a crappy day at work! LOVE IT!

Well, just downloading music so I have some new stuff to listen too! Chao

Just Lyrics

Hey baby girl,I’ve been watching you all day(all day, all day, all day)Man that thing you got behindYou is amazing (amazing, amazing, amazing)You make me want to take you out and let it rain(let it rain, let it rain, let ir rain)I know you got a man but this is what you should say
Why don’t you tell him thatI’m leavin’ never lookin back againYou found somebody who does it better than he canNo more making you cry, no more them gray skiesGirl we flying on the G5 G5And I’m leavin’ never lookin back again…So call your shawty you tell him you found a new manThe one who’s so so flyThe one that keep you highHave you singing all night night nightOh oh oh, Oh oh oh, yeah, manShe going to be sayin’Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh oh oh,
Now if I talk it girl,You know that I will walk it out(walk it out, walk it out, walk it out)Man I’ll put my money (money)where my mouth is (mouth, mouth, mouth)Cause you the baddest little thingThat I’ve ever seen (ever seen, ever seen, ever seen)So Ima ask you one time if you got a man
Why don’t you tell himThat I’m leavin’ never lookin back againYou found somebody who does it better than he canNo more making you cry, no more them gray skiesGirl we flying on a G5 G5And I’m leavin’ never lookin back againSo call your shawty you tell him you found a new manThe one who’s so so flyThe one that keep you highHave you singing all night night nightOh oh oh, Oh oh oh man she going to be sayin’Oh oh oh oh, She going to be sayin’Oh, She going to be sayin’She going to be sayin’Oh, going to be sayin’
Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stressJust tell him to the left left leftDon’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stressCause we gone & we gone & we goneNo stress, no stress, no stressGirl you deserve nothing but the bestNo stress, no stress, no stressGirl you need to tell himThat I’m leavin’ never lookin back againYou found somebody who does it better than he canNo more making you cry, no more them gray skiesGirl we flying on a G5 G5And I’m leavin’ never lookin back again…So call your shawty you tell him you found a new manThe one who’s so so flyThe one that keep you highHave you singing all night night nightOh oh oh, Oh oh oh man she going to be sayin’Oh oh oh oh, Oh oh ohMan she going to be sayin’She going to be sayin’She going to be sayin’

So bored.....

Ok, this boredom is horrid! I need something to spice up my life.....like a totally hot guy! lol Just kidding. Probably wouldn't know what to do with one if he showed, but it's a nice dream anyway!

Totally forgot to grab some Pristq last week, so by Sunday I had run out. Then I forgot once again Monday and Tuesday to pick some up. After 3 days without meds, I am so far out of whack, it's not even funny. I am the Pissy Bitch today. I want to just scream at people for even talking to mel, let alone ask me to do anything for them. Totally unjustified as they are all the nice ones and not being jerks about anything. So far, I've managed to keep my trap shut and not holler at anyone today, and as I have only 1/2 hour left, I think I may have succeeded in making through my day without being mean to anyone. Now, if only I can deal with a 4 year old all evening without blowing up.........

Did our taxes yesterday and today. Now just waiting on IRS acceptance. Blah blah blah. Need that to go through quickly so we can get our refund ASAP!!!!! We have to get a vehicle SOON! My brother comes back in just over a month, and he's gonna want his ride back, so we'll be up shit creek without a paddle if this takes longer than that! Not a good thing. Shit stinks.

Then we have to find something to drive around in. My biggest fears are that we'll end up in a hoopty wagon, or we'll get something that is falling apart and has to be repaird every other day. With all this crap going on, it's a wonder I sleep at night. Add that to the fact that I'm GAINING weight, and we have no money, and well we have a great equation that adds up to DEPRESSION!! And I wonder why I don't want to ever get out of bed in the mornings......

Well, guess I'll quit wallowing in my pool of self-pity and kill some time looking at rigs online until I have to leave to pick up Bryson.

Chao.

Caution: work and boredom do not mix well!!

This is how I am about to spend my day, as I haven't got much of anything to do! Might as well catch a few zzzz's while I'm bored out of my mind!

I did have a project to work on, and that helped to while away the down time here at good ol PICMC. However, my project is done until I have time to spend with the boss lady so she can show me how I am to do the next portion of the project. Which could be never, since I, being extremely lucky, get to help train the 2 new MA's we are getting in the next 2 weeks. Guess I'll have to go back to my first plan of sleeping at my desk lol.

So, I have decided that if I were required to live somewhere that was gray all the time, as it was here the last 2 weeks or so, I would be come a homicidal maniac. Depression mixed with having to deal with too many stupid people is not a good combination. And, as I am not Suicidal in my Depression....that leaves only Homicide. Ahhh, well....we need to clean out the gene pool of our society anyhow.

Well, off to find some more fun and exciting things to do here to kill a few more hours. May not even have to come in tomorrow, since they don't want anyone having OT. Too bad....breaks my heart....NOT!

Irritation

Ok, see the lions baring their teeth?? That's how I'm feeling right about now. I'm stuck working for an office nurse who just HAD to leave becuase her daughter got immunizations yesterday and is now running a fever. Helloooooo......normal....Get over yourself. She has her 8month old at the doctor at least once a week. Give the kid a chance to chase off a runny nose by herself for once. Ridiculous!

And the drama....oh-my-god! Get a freaking daycare that's licensed and maybe you won't have so many freaking problems!!!! And, while we all nod and smile, we really don't care about your issues, so keep them to yourself!

Wich I could bring myself to say that, but I'm too weenie, plus I'd like to keep my job, not that I'm liking it at the moment, but hey. No, instead I just not and smile and do the bullshit job that I don't want to do today. Thank goodness for Rich and Rachel. They are lifesavers. Rich did 2 ear irrigations for me today and Rachel told me to let her know if I needed any help even if they are busy down on PIC. At this moment, I love them both!

And, where the heck is lunch??? We are supposed to be getting Mandarin House. Is it here? No. Why not? All us ferocious beasties at PICMC are freaking hungry! Before you know it, we may have to start gnawing on someones arm! Not really. There's no one here who looks all the delicious to me! lol. Ok I better git before someone thinks I'm not doing my job! Chao!

Now that my work is caught up.....

K, we all need some humor in our lives now and again. Found this, supposed to be on a t-shirt, thought it was dorky enough for the blog peeps. LOL

So, had a good Christmas. Too busy, but then what's new there. I really can't wait until Todd and I get a nice big place and we can just do Christmas at our house and not have to go 20 places!

Bryson's gone for the week. I miss the little stinker!!! But, it is nice to have a little break too. Todd and I needed some time to ourselves.

Well, that catches you up on my life. Yup it's like the title...boring. Lata